Pondering Thoughts of My Soul

Grieving people are close to my heart, as I have been there.  When my husband passed away many years ago, I was 33 years old with 2 children, 10 and 6.  After the shock wore off, grief set in.  The pain was intense, overwhelming, and paralyzing.  I had brain fog and confusion, and I couldn’t sleep more than four hours at night.  It is not just death that brings grief, but divorce, separation, loss of a job, and any major change.  I grieved hard and cried daily.  After one year, I felt ready to move on with my life.  Slowly, joy came back into my soul, and I felt an uplifting in my spirit.  Much of that grief had been expelled and it felt good.  All that difficult grieving released the emotions of sorrow and I now felt free.  I had needed to grieve in order to move on.  God is good.  He took care of me and my children.  I was never angry with God, which was a blessing.  Thank You, Lord, for Your loving care of me and my children throughout that strenuous time.  Thank You for being my refuge and my strength.  And thank You for the man I married three years later and the family we have today.  Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is close to those who are brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”